[Dailydrool] Remembering my Blueberry -- to the Bridge 3 years ago today

[Hinchliffe at aol.com]

It seems so unreal that it's been three years without my Blueberry ... my  
Berry girl, my Bluesel, my Velcro dog, my love.
 
Three years ago right now she went to the Bridge, leaving an emptiness that 
 sometimes still stabs me.
 
She had fought so hard to stay with me.  Renal failure is an awful,  awful 
disease, and we tried everything.  Four doctors, including a  renal 
specialist at a vet school; countless treatments; and she was so good, she  just 
nestled in my arms no matter how painful.
 
I don't know how we would have found the strength to keep going in our  
search for help if it weren't for all of you -- our loving Daily Drool family,  
who blessed us with your caring.  How you embraced us and nurtured  us.  
You gave us comfort and understanding and a safe, warm harbor.  I  remember 
the day that, almost delirious with hope, I shared the joyous news that  
Blueberry had eaten a cheeseburger!  She hadn't eaten anything on her own  in 
weeks, and then suddenly she ate her very favorite McD cheeseburger.   Only 
you, my DD family, knew how much that meant, and you flooded us with  e-mails 
that touched me so deeply.
 
And then, three years ago right now, I had to write to share the  
devastating news that my baby had taken her journey to the Bridge, too too  early.  I 
couldn't sleep that night, and keeping me company were dozens of  DD 
e-mails that poured in all night long, from around the world, from friends  and 
from people I hadn't even "met" yet online -- but you were all the family of  
my heart, because you understood, you KNEW.
 
The next weeks would have been unbearable if it hadn't been for all of  
you.  Cards and gifts came to give me strength through their visual  reminder 
of your caring.  Phone calls and e-mails came just when I needed  them most.
 
It comforts me greatly to know not just that you care about me, but, most  
importantly, that you care about her, that you remember her, that you feel 
like  you knew her.  That makes me feel as though she's still living, carried 
in  each of your hearts too.
 
Thank you, all of you.  Please think of Blueberry tonight as you  give 
tummy-rubs to your own houndies.  Please remember how she always had  to be 
touching me -- a paw on my foot; sitting next to me on the couch where I  set up 
my computer so we could be together; crawling up to sleep on my chest,  
resting her head on my neck.  Remember her love of cheeseburgers, and ice  
cream cones, and chin scratches, and lullabies (they made her sigh and go right  
to sleep).  Remember her sweetness (never growled once in her life) and  
goofiness (when she grinned, her tongue hung down to the floor) and brave 
little  heart.
 
I will always love you, my Berry girl, and I miss you every single  day.
 
Beth H. (Duchess ATB and Blueberry ATB)  
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For  Duchess and Blueberry:  "You have gone ahead and nothing is the same,  
leaving pawprints on my heart that will always remain." -- Tibetan Proverb 
from  Prayers on the Wind
 
 
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