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This is the question mom asks every day.</FONT></DIV>
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She wants to know why Sadie left 4 months 10 days after </FONT></DIV>
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Spaniel. Sadie was still comforting mom</FONT></DIV>
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since Mandy's leave for the bridge. Sadie was always the
affectionate</FONT></DIV>
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one while I am stand offish. When people came over I would hide but</FONT></DIV>
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Mandy & Sadie would do the meet & greet. If mom was laying on
the</FONT></DIV>
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size=2> floor, Sadie would
come & lay her head on mom's shoulder, or they</FONT></DIV>
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would spoon together & Sadie could hug. She would lay facing you
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put her front paws on mom's shoulders & comfort her when mom
cried</FONT></DIV>
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about Mandy. I don't do any of that so I'm not doing a good job
consoling</FONT></DIV>
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her. Mom had a very in-depth conversation with the vet about the
surgery.</FONT></DIV>
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The tumor on the spleen was found by accident on the x-ray &
ultrasound.</FONT></DIV>
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size=2> Sadie had these
tests to see why she wasn't eating. They thought it was</FONT></DIV>
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flooring but it actually was a place mat. If Sadie did not have the
surgery</FONT></DIV>
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she would ended having bled to death. So mom had a long talk with</FONT></DIV>
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Sadie. You have to understand that Mandy was mom's first ever dog
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Sadie was the first basset that she always wanted since she was a
little</FONT></DIV>
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size=2> girl from a paint
by number picture of a hound. She still has it & it's framed.</FONT></DIV>
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There was a bond between these 3. Mom could hold conversations with
them.</FONT></DIV>
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size=2> So she asked Sadie
if she wanted this operation so she could eat again &</FONT></DIV>
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not to worry about the tumor bleeding out. This was another long
conversation.</FONT></DIV>
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Everything here has always revolved around us. She bought us a new house
so</FONT></DIV>
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own room, put up a 6 foot privacy fence & built us a carport</FONT></DIV>
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roof so we can go to the bathroom & not get wet, we have TV trays for our
bowls</FONT></DIV>
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with place mats with rugs underneath that. So why did Sadie die 10 hours
after</FONT></DIV>
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surgery. All they could say that is must have been a blood clot. They
don't know</FONT></DIV>
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size=2> if it went to the
heart or the brain but needless to say, mom still doesn't
understand.</FONT></DIV>
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Mom always wants to do the right thing for us. She believed Sadie did not want
to</FONT></DIV>
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leave yet. Sadie would want mom to be with her just like mom was with Mandy
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when she left. Mom would never let Sadie leave us all alone with no one
beside</FONT></DIV>
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her. People are trying to explain to mom that she wasn't in any pain since
she</FONT></DIV>
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was on morphine & that her body no longer could fight to be stronger &
recover.</FONT></DIV>
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Mom has not come to terms with this at all!!! Mom would never had put Sadie
in</FONT></DIV>
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any pain & would have helped her to the bridge when the time came. Sadie
was</FONT></DIV>
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all alone when she left. They called & mom went to see her & she was
still warm.</FONT></DIV>
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refused to go near her. Mom is very lost without her. She doesn't even
want to</FONT></DIV>
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come home from work. What for - there's nothing here & it's so quite. Even
though</FONT></DIV>
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Sadie slept a lot you could hearing her breathing. Mom looks at me & says
she</FONT></DIV>
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doesn't know what to do for me. She's so heartbroken that all she does is
cry.</FONT></DIV>
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She can't get over the guilt that it was her fault for hurting Sadie &
having her leave</FONT></DIV>
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size=2> without us being
with her.</FONT></DIV>
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<DIV><FONT face=Arial size=2> We
would like to thank everyone who sent us condolences on & off the drool,
cards</FONT></DIV>
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& ecards, etc. It's nice to know that other people know how we feel
when we lose a</FONT></DIV>
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love hound/dog family member. We are her life & world.</FONT></DIV>
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Also, we want to send out our sympathy to those who have lost a hound after us.
We</FONT></DIV>
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can't read about those just yet since mom is still in her deep
grief.</FONT></DIV>
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<DIV><FONT face=Arial
size=2> Countess Penny of
Indiana</FONT></DIV>
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size=2> <A
href="mailto:Sadie1@dogomania.com">Sadie1@dogomania.com</A></FONT></DIV>
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P.S. Sadie's calendar day is coming up. Look at how beautiful she is
(with her pearls)</FONT></DIV>
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Also, we are sending our howliday cards out this week. The picture was taken
one</FONT></DIV>
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month before Sadie's surgery. She doesn't look like a hound that was ready
to leave.</FONT></DIV>
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