[Dailydrool] Maggie Mildred

[kimberly smith]

It's been 6 days since I lost my baby . I don't think I've ever felt this much pain in my life.
Every time I wake up I think she's going to be here. And then the heart wrenching pain comes right back. I have this pain, an emptiness in my stomach and can't eat.
I'm constantly crying . She was my best friend. I didn't need a sleeping pill at night when she slept with me because just cuddling her and sniffing her head put me right to sleep. As soon as she knew I was sleeping she snuck out to go see what was going on else where.
She'd always know when I was sad and she'd cuddle me and I would sing her the "Barney " song. She had the best Frito feet ever.
I just don't know how I'm going to get through this. I know "time" but what about in the mean time?
Barney
 keeps looking for Maggie and I try to tell him but he is not himself. He's my bed buddy. We just sit in bed all day and I want to make him feel safe.
I'm going through this all alone. My husband can't be bothered to stay home and do anything and my children have to work. I feel like I'm in a dark lonely place all by myself.
If anyone out there knows how to get through something so devastating, please let me know.
I want her back with me but I know that's impossible

Thank you
Kimberly smith
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