[Dailydrool] Do you feel like that when you see your baby age?

[VIRGINIA OLIVEIRA]

Dis Violeta's mom.

Yesterday Violeta came for a visit and she is not listening very well anymore.
It is strange, Xaxa had infections in the ear, always with something but didn't lose the hearing, not even at 14 almost 15. 
Now Violeta is only 12 and a half and cannot listen very well, and she needed because she lost her eyesight to glaucoma.
I am here crying. I don't see her everyday so when I see it us hard to see the changes.
She get scared when I went to caress her because she couldnt hear me arrive. But then she relaxed and lie sideways so I could do a real good massage.
But Violeta smelled the doors, crazy to wait dadperson who went to buy a present at the mall. She very attached to him, if course, because he is her safety. Always has been.
But when they left I criedcriedcried because I miss my baby and because I think it is an irony that she stays the day alone, and she hates being alone!!!
I am here, she is there, both alone. I can only pray and offer all my suffering in exchange of her health and happiness.
We cannot change life, but I feel guilty that she stays for so long by herself.
When I still lived with them it was good because even when I was depressed we were TOGETHER! It was so good. So very good.
On the other hand, we got to see Violeta is with a family that took care of her through all her first and second eye glaucoma, who has taught and made her life the best pissible so she can go around the beds with ramps, and is only loved loved loved.
She has taken has heart meds for over a year and a half, we give her all she needs and accepts her the way she is, loving her since she was 3 months old. We would never reject her for any reason. Blindness, heart disease, we love her always more and more.
She is cared and protected. Loved and loved even more.
Do you all feel that sad as they get alone because people got to work? 
And feel sad to see they get blind and deaf?
If we were together she would never be alone, but we are not.
She is so beautiful.
Hopes her basset heart is content with so much good food and chicken breast and caring of dadperson and I, momperson, when she comes to visit. I hardly go there because the motor of the elevator broke, so only when dadperson calls me there on a weekend, when he is of work.
Well, things are what they are. We do our best, and it is the most we can do.
I hope she knows that.
Lub
Virginia
Mom who misses Violeta and also Xaxa ( who is in heaven now- one day we all will be together)

Miriam Virginia Oliveira